I give up

I give up. I don't know anymore. I just don't want to feel anymore. I don't know. I'm so confuse, my emotions are all over the place..I don't know what to do at all! I'm so scared and reluctant, yet there's a part of me that's a tad excited and bracing myself for the best and the worst. A VERY huge part of me is just scared, everything will be new, environment, place, life, friends. I don't know how I am going to face them. Will I fit in ? or will I be an outsider , the loner? .........I'm just so tired......