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I give up

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Wed, 29 Aug 2012 16:13:00 +0000

I give up. I don't know anymore. I just don't want to feel anymore. I don't know. I'm so confuse, my emotions are all over the place..I don't know what to do at all! I'm so scared and reluctant, yet there's a part of me that's a tad excited and bracing myself for the best and the worst. A VERY huge part of me is just scared, everything will be new, environment, place, life, friends. I don't know how I am going to face them. Will I fit in ? or will I be an outsider , the loner? .........I'm just so tired......

Holly Fulton Spring/Summer 2012

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 13 May 2012 15:24:00 +0000

Holly Fulton's SS 2012!

I love the clash of colours and the prints used. In my opinion it's a tad futuristic designs meeting the 60s. Xd. I especially love the baby blue! Pictures via Vogue UK Till next time xx

Confused.

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 13 May 2012 14:55:00 +0000

it's feels so right and wrong at the same time. I want but I know I should not have...I guess not...le sigh. Someone told me today... "It's difficult to start something when you know it's not going to end well, unless you don't mind the risk of getting hurt, real badly." I guess someday I'll know why it didn't and will not happen..........

Uh Hai?

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 15 Apr 2012 01:02:00 +0000

HAARROOOO. Okei it's been forever since I came on here.

Hmm, for starters, I've graduated from sixth form, currently am waiting for answers from universities(see which ever wants me) XD.
I kinda regretted applying for some of the unis tho, I applied for about 6 local government unis and uh 1 of them is a 2 hours flight away, 2 others are 1 & 1/2 hours flight away(10 hours bus ride)and ummm yeah the list goes on. I kinda don't really want to be away from home...MEEH. We'll just see how it goes.
Education aside. XD. Life has been pretty decent for me lately :) I'm also less emo these days :P XD(if you happen/used to read my blog you'll know what I mean XD)
I'm gonna show you guys the cheongsam that I bought for Chinese New Year this year( well CNY is like ummm months back but whatever XD)

(I'm the one in teal) xd
I freaking love the dress!!! GAAAAH <3 ehhe

Till next time xx

Happy New Year!!

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 09:03:00 +0000

HAPPY NEW YEAARR!!!
How did you spend your new year's eve? :D

Well I had a rather interesting new year's eve. I spent the day till the evening having sports with church members. I haven't done such vigorous sports in months!! But it was so good! After sports, I spent the whole night with my family for a dinner and dance party.

But right now, my whole body is aching and my leg muscles are all sore. Gaaah I can barely move -_-
After months of not doing sports and doing it all out of a sudden killed me -_- I injured my left foot a little from running during the day but I still manage to spend the rest of the night in 5 inch heels, dancing the night away. I could barely walk afterwards, feet is all sore and numb, leg muscles are sore and hurt like mad!! Even now my leg and body muscles are all sore -_- but oh well :D Was good New Years Eve!! :D Was great :D xd

Ps, what I wore for the dinner and dance party! :D

Till next time xxxxxxx

Moving on to something new.

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 04:47:00 +0000

A while back, I felt lost and left alone. My friends were all leaving and going places with their lives, turning the pages of their book and going into new chapters. New adventures, new friends, new environment and all were continents away. While I am still studying in school, eventho I had a lot of friends in school but I still felt alone…all I could ever think of is I’m here, still here, studying for my finals that I’ve dreaded,while my close friends were away,far away. I was very down, stress from studies were mounting up, I had no one to turn to, life itself was stressful, I was so sick of feeling depressed and I was just not me at all.

After months of blocking out the outside world and made my life only revolve around my studies. My finals are over and here I am at the crossroad of a new chapter in my life… Never thought I said this but I am reluctant to turn the pages. I want to turn back the pages, turn back to when I was studying all day long with my friends, turn back to the time when we still had to wake up at 6am and put on our uniforms to school, the time where we took every free periods of lesson to talk, to play random game…. I am afraid of loosing all these memories and loosing all the friends that I made through the 1 and a half year of sixth form…

I thought that when my exams ended I would be ecstatic, but I guess not, it’s the opposite. Maybe a part of me is afraid of going into uni and grow older..maybe just maybe…. But right now, all I want to do is to thank the Lord for taking my close friends away from me and put in new friends into my life.(close friends are still my close friends but now I have more friends! :)) I thank the Lord for comforting me in times of my sadness and loneliness, I thank the Lord for helping me and guiding me in times of stressfulness. I thank Him for not forsaking me eventho there are times when I’ve done Him wrong. He is still here for me,and all I need to do is to be still and know that He is God.

I may be afraid of what lies ahead but I won’t stop going forward for I know I have the Lord on my side, and that is all the reassurance that I need. For the Lord did say “……. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” -Matthew 28:20

Thanks for still being here. xxx

My new clutch

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 03:01:00 +0000

I know I promise a picture of it, so here it is. ehhehe -_- (that took long enough *faints* XD)

Ps this is also the new nail colour that I bought. GAH! LOVE IT ehhe

Back to studying now. The amount of stress!! Ps, exam is in about 5 days. YAY ME!(not) :( xx

Till next time ! xxx

21 cupcakes!

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 13 Nov 2011 16:22:00 +0000

Harro! Over the weekend I baked 21 cupcakes for a very special person who turned 21 today :D It was a simple cupcake with basic ingredients and basic frosting.

Here's the cupcake!

I am proud to say he love it! ehe

Natasha Poly

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 20:00:00 +0000

Lovely!

Natasha Poly by Greg Kadel for Vogue Spain November 2011

Pics via fashiongonerogue

Frida Gustavsson

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 10:33:00 +0000

Frida Gustavsson in Elle Sweden November issue.

Loving the retro look of this shoot by Andreas Öhlund. Gorgeous clothes featured as well from the likes of Miu Miu, Dolce & Gabbana, Marc Jacobs.

Frida looks great! Reminds me of the 30s. Oh so glamorous!

Ps,Thanks for still checking my quiet blog out! :D
Till next time xxx

Clutch bag!

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Tue, 11 Oct 2011 10:31:00 +0000

Bah! So, I just bought myself a clutch bag for a really good bargain. I haven't took a pic of it yet =_=. so meeeeh shall post it on here when I do along with my new haircut. The hair is Emma Watson's short hair inspired. XD stay tune?? ehhehe <3

Till next time xxx

EMOOOO

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 16:02:00 +0000

MEEH. I've been very emo lately and I finally broke down today....happened while I was studying with 3 other friends at a cafe. Was doing macroeconomics and suddenly I just started crying. =_= My eyes are now swollen like a goldfish's eye and yeaah. I have about 45 days or so to go till my examination that will literally determine my future- aka if I am eligible to get into local uni or not. :S If I don't then the past 1 1/2years of studying in sixth form would have wasted my time, because I have to start over with everything in private college etc.....
GAAAAAAH. I freaking hate all of this atm. Glad I have such great friends to cheer me up just now. Life is super stressful at the moment. My eye bags are becoming more and more obvious. I look like a zombie most of the time now....

Off to bed. Eyes are barely open. Good night! Have a nice sleep/nice day

Till next time xxxx

Just be honest with me.

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 15:28:00 +0000

I treat you like a good friend, but apparently you don't. I still can't get over the fact that you would lie to me straight in my face about something so important. To be honest, I already found out LOOONNGGGG BEFORE...I just wanted to hear it from you so I HAAD to ask, I expected you to just be plain honest with me but you didn't instead you lied and gave me such lame excuses that contradicts your actions. I can't bring myself to forgive you nor forget about what you've said and done, maybe not yet. I really hope you prove me wrong. How can you lie to me so easily when you're actions are a 180 degress different to what you said?? Do you actually think I am that stupid to not see whats going on around me? I am not 2 you know, I have eyes, ears of my own. People talk, I am able to see..... You've changed so much, at least not like the person I knew for the past 3 years.

Back from holiday

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Mon, 05 Sep 2011 14:47:00 +0000

Well I am not sure if anyone is still reading my blog since it's super quiet and all now but just like to update a little on my tiny break off from everything and just relax on an island. :D eheh
Was lovely to just spend time with my love ones , the island was great but it was the time spent with love ones that made it amazing :D gaaah. I want to be back there, where the gorgeous beaches are easy to access and the chill out, relaxed lifestyle of the locals are so addictive. XD

Back to exam mode. I have my trials coming up next week, to think I still had the guts to take time off to go off to an Island. =_= XD

Ps, the emo face! HAHAH. I actually kept thinking of studying while I was there, I even brought 2 past year question books to the island, but did not study or look at it for one bit. HAHAHA FAAAIL? XD

Till next time xxxxxxxxxx

Hey guys

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sat, 13 Aug 2011 15:17:00 +0000

Hey! So in about an hour time it will be 99 days till I sit for my major public exam so would like to just say from today on, I will not be blogging(UNLESS, I have a sudden urge to blog etc) ehhehe.
I will be away till my exams end which is in December, hopefully by then you lovely people will still remember me :( hehe

I will be doing a little countdown and random light updates on my tumblr and MAYBE on my blog but would most probably be slightly more active on tumblr.....
Here's MY tumblr. XD

I am here to bid farewell (for now) EHHE.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX <3

Harrro..Exam week.

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Tue, 19 Jul 2011 13:35:00 +0000

I don't feel very good today, after a tiring day of nonstop exams. Yes NONSTOP =_=
8-10am General studies.
10.50am-12.20pm Financial Accountings
12.40pm-2.40pm Business Studies.
I kinda feel horrible at the moment. Worst thing is tho, I am coming down with a flu and I still have Management Accountings and Macroeconomics exam...But I know, tomorrow will be a new day and everything will be different :) I hope!

What annoys me is that WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, I mean like why can't I get something at the first time when everybody else does, why do others only need like 1-2 exercises to understand the whole thing while MEEEEE.. gaah I have to do like amounts of exercises to understand a work. I hate this feeling that I've been feeling lately, it's like whatever I study never goes through and it makes me feel dumb....why am I feeling like this lately? *sighs*
Meeeeh.
I have been in a very moody mood lately, I get angry too easily and whenever I see or hear something that does not go to my liking or in a way insults me I would immediately confront the person/thing. I used to just be patient with people who insults me or say some stuff that I don't like but lately, NOOO,I just go around confront them. =_= (A little exaggerating but yeaah XD :P Don't worry I am still nice :P HAHAH) I know this is bad, it's very bad! I am glad I have not pissed off any of my close friends in school or else I would be friendless and all alone when I graduate. hehe =_=

Forget all that, I want this shoe. XD
Picture from Kurt Geiger website

It's amazing how a simple shoe can change my mood eh :P HAHAHAHAHAHAH
I shall get back when my exam ends. Thanks and a million thanks for still reading my really quiet blog. HEHE.

Been listening to alot of Amanda Seyfried's Little House.I mean ALOT =_= xd

Till next time xx

Needs a clutch bag

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Wed, 29 Jun 2011 15:58:00 +0000

I am in desperate need of a clutch bag! Here are some ideas of what I would love to have !!! *loves*

I actually adore these following 2 clutch bags the most. GAAH!

Pictures are via tumblr. I do not own any of these images.
If you wish to remove or to be credited for this image(s) please let me know. :)

Ps, had my haircut yesterday. ehhehe Love it, imagine Emily Browning's short hair ;) ehehehhe. Shall have pictures soon!
Till next time xxxx

Jonathan Saunders SS 2011 RTW

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 26 Jun 2011 18:55:00 +0000

Jonathan Saunders SS 2011 RTW. Need I say more?

Am in love.

Pictures via Nymag

Till next time xxx

Summer is here!

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Thu, 23 Jun 2011 10:14:00 +0000

Well, it's officially summer for everyone now(except for those who are in the southern part of the world :( )

I can say that I am A LITTLE excited about this but well I live in a country where it's summer all year round, ehhehe so yaah I need to be low profile about the excitement.
What I am excited about is that now all shops display their summer collection and the whole mood is summery EHEH.
+ Soon, everywhere will be jammed pack with loads of tourist, I know this is weird but I love looking at how tourists dress and guess which countries they would most probably come from. Just for the fun of it :) eheh

I am grateful to be here, with summer all year round etc but sometimes I do wish we had more festival going on during this time :D. Music festival, art festival etc.

Did you know, we actually DO HAVE 4 seasons in this country. The four seasons are :-
Hot.
Very hot
Super hot and.......
Extremely hot. AHAHHA. My pastor said that during a sermon. EHEHHE :D

Wish I could put all this on for my vacation soon. EHHEHE

Can't help but love the graphic Aztec like prints from Mara Hoffman Spring 2011 RTW and Menswear. I know this year's summer is all about big bright bold colours but I am just drawn to these darker shades, the olive green and cobalt blue are just as lovely as anything and just a standout.

GAAAH! All these talk about summer, the sun the beach, bikinis and beer is cheering me up :D. Yes, I've been feeling very very very very x100000 emo and down lately, don't ask why, I don't know either, studies pressure? Maybe. Don't know. Am just glad that this post cheered me up :) hehe.

Pictures via Nymag

Ps Till next time xxx
PPs, Jaanipäev! :D ehhe

I need colours in my life. XD

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 12 Jun 2011 11:41:00 +0000

I need some colours in my life at the moment :( ehehh

Colours like from the runway of YSL Resort 2011

Or
Jil Sander SS RTW 2011

Ps, loving the Fuchsia coloured lipstick on the models <3

Yeaaaap, I need these to brighten my emo days XD

Hai!The last day of my 2 week break is today *emos* XD
Actually I didn't really had rest in the break, I was even more stressed out compared to when I am in school. I kept reminding myself to practice my violin and kept reminding myself to study, I have only 162 days or 5 months, 9 days or 13,996,800 seconds or 233,280 minutes or 3888 hours or about 23 weeks to go. OWHHH noooooooo......... That's so soon :/
Gaaah, yeaah I should go study now...

Pictures via elle.co.uk
Till next time :) ehhe xxxxx

12 years and still counting.

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Thu, 02 Jun 2011 10:30:00 +0000

Hey again, today I decided to share some pictures with you. The other day while my besties and I were hanging out, we decided to just take random pictures, but little did we know, the pictures turned out great! eheh We love it, it's so natural and nothing tried too hard. :D

Can't actually believe it but we've spent 12 years of our lives together, shared our ups and downs. :) They are just amazing people and I am blessed to have them in my life :) ehhehe

The beautiful ladies.

Till next time xxxxx

Stranger

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Wed, 01 Jun 2011 17:42:00 +0000

Hey...I feel like a stranger on my blog. I haven't been on here for ages.
May for me was really hectic, glad it's over and here is June :D <3 even though this means STPM is closing in but I am just going to relax for a bit. :)
So, I had a little BBQ with my sixth form mates today. After the eating and cleaning up was done we played a card game where the player with the lowest number from the cards would have to answer a truth question asked by the player with the highest number.
There were a lot of random crazy questions, and some just weird=_= but yeaaah it was fun..... this made me realized tho, while a lot of us are out there looking for that special someone, a lot of us are constantly hoping to have someone special in our lives, or hoping to be that someone special in other people's life...I am just here, waiting, I don't really know what I am waiting for but I know I should wait. I am waiting for God to give me someone who will support me emotionally,financially, and just every aspect of my life. You may think that I am looking for that perfect someone that would not exist in this era but in actual if he is the one God has chosen for me, he does not need to be perfect in the eyes of others, all he need to be is perfect in God's eye. I know a lot of people out there are saying stuff like "you should start looking for someone now.." "you should do this/that" But I think, and this is what I am going to do, I've decided to wait for God to show me the "perfect" someone he has prepared for me. This is what I remembered from a sermon by a pastor to us youth, I quote him, How can you be loyal to your patner if you are not loyal to God? Till today, I still remember them.. Today, I've decided to first fall in love with God all over again for I shall admit, I have been cold and hot with God. I only call to Him when I need Him and neglect Him when I do not..
I guess God wants me to first fall in love with Him in order for me to be able to truly understand what love is, let's face it, who really understands the true meaning of love?..

I am off to bed now. It's really late and I had a very long day today.
Thanks for still being here. You guys are amazingly amazing.

Till next time xxxxxx

Shades Of Yellow

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Fri, 15 Apr 2011 13:45:00 +0000

Heeeey. So I know how terrible I've been about leaving my blog like this but life for me right now is just terrible. Yeah I still come home from school 7pm or 6pm++ but this time it's even stressful for me because STPM will be in Nov. That's like about 7 months.
7 months to study everything under the sun on Financial Accountings, Management Accountings, Microeconomics, Macroeconomics, General Studies paper 1 and 2, Business paper 1 and 2. So technically I have 8 subjects to study for a year and a half and will sit for the papers at the end of the year and the exam results will determine my future.
In other words, 8 pieces of exam paper, each sum up to 100 marks then divide by 2 according to their respective subjects (eg, Micro+Macro econs= Econs.) will determine what I've learned for the past 1 and a half year, and determine my future- whether I get into Uni or not.
In addition to all of these, remember how I said I was voted to be the Sixth Form Union Council's Vice-President. Well we don't just take up this post for nothing, we have to organize our trips to Parliament, to Court etc etc. Moreover we have to organize Teacher's Day, Sports day etc in school. Honestly, do everyone think we are machines? or part human part robots?( HAHAH=_=) MEEEEHHHHH. OKeii.... moving on....

To add up to the amount of stress =_= I will be sitting for my grade 7 ABRSM violin exam in June/July. I don't even have time to play the violin for fun let alone practice for an exam so right now life for me is just all over the place. I have no idea WHYYYYY IN THE WORLD I DECIDED to sit for this exam this year but my exam fees are paid so there's no turning back, by hook or by crook I MUST do well in this.

Owh! Last week I sat for MUET speaking paper. It's something like TOEFL. Tomorrow I will be sitting for the Reading,Writting and Listening paper. GAAAHHHHH =_=

I am sorry for injecting stress into my blog but I guess this was one of the reasons why I even started a blog, a place for me to express my feelings etc etc. HEEE
So that pretty much sums up how stressful my life is at the moment.

On a brighter note, let us all droll at the different shades of yellow(from Amber to Mustard to Icterine to Blond...) used on the SS RTW 2011 runway of designers like Giambattista Valli to Maxmara to Moschino Cheap & Cheap to Christopher Kane to Erdem etc etc.
HEHE You get the point =_= Xd Here are some of them.

Giambattista Valli

Moschino Cheap & Chic

Dries Van Noten. This is far too adorable ehhe

Christopher Kane.

MaxMara

Vivienne Westwood. I adore this tutu dress!! EHE

But I love this a lot too by Katya Dobryakova <3 ehhe

Yellow and anything that are vibrant in colour is definitely a must have in SS this year but on a personal note I couldn't possibly imagine myself in yellow. I find that I look horrible in yellow. ehehhe But I still love them anywaaaayy XDXD My fav from all these pictures are by Giambattista Valli. What's yours? hehe

By the way, I feel so much better after this post. HHAH not so stressed and tensed out and so much happier but it's time for bed, my first paper is at 8am tomorrow :D

Pictures via Russian Vogue.

Ps, to my faithful readers! Thank you for still being here, this blog will be miserable without you lovelies! hehe. Pps I promise to visit your blogs after tomorrow's exam hehe. For now, wish me luck :D
You guys are tremendously wonderful!!!
Loads of love!

Till next time xxxx

Looklet

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Sun, 20 Mar 2011 12:13:00 +0000

Harro again. So was watching videos from Vogue Russian Tv and browsing through the web AAANNNNDDD I FOUND SOMETHING AWEEESSSOOMMMEEE-Looklet. XD

It's something like Polyvore where you get to create looks but this allows you to create looks with models .HEHEHEHE. =_= *faints* (there goes my plan of studying/doing my school work) XD

Here are the looks I created this afternoon. XD(I don't really know how to syn Looklet and blogger or something so ... :( )

Owh! This look was created by my sister :D I love it! xd

You guys should totally try it out :D(meeh maybe you've all knew about it I am just late XD)
Here's my Looklet.

Ps tell me what you think of the looks I created XD

Till next time xxxx

Raptor Watch 2011

noreply@blogger.com (BANMS) — Thu, 17 Mar 2011 13:40:00 +0000

Harro. I am not going to apologies for not posting because I think most probably you guys are sick of that..

Last weekend, I attended this annual event-Raptors Watch held by the Malaysian Nature Society (MNS). It was my first time attending an event like that but it was awesome :D. Owh! Just a heads up, I didn't take much picture that day cause I was a LITTLE itsy bitsy bit intimidated by the photographers that were present. They are all like this really professional people(or at least people who have been doing this thing for decades..) going around with their digiscopes/ L lenses and tripods et cetera, all geared up for the event and all while me(well, technically I am not a photographer,that is something I do not claim to be but yeaah) with my standard Telephoto Zoom Lens and a 50mm lens(WHICH I ADORE ALOT!) so like yeaah intimidated =_= XDXDXD. Hence very little pictures.. moving along.

Digiscope!(without the camera attached tho :( )

Telescopes were set up randomly around the placce for people to looked through :)

This event had been going on since the year 2000. There was alot of stuff going on, games to play, booths that were very informative and even a booth for face painting!

I did not try it out tho cause I have sensitive skin and dared not take the risk of having blotchy red face later.. HEHEHEHEH

We actually didn't do much,we arrived, walked around the booths, check out stuff, looked through telescopes to look for the raptors floating/flying/resting above. Try to get a tan at the beach.. XD bought a T-shirt from one of the booth! and just relaxed. XD

The list of the raptors recorded.

That's about it :( XD. OWH OWH! I bought this really really cute t-shirt(which I didn't take a pic of sorry :()

Pps, my first monthly exam ended, I didn't do well at all. Time to work even harder :/

Pictures taken by yours truly. All Rights Reserved.

Find out more on their website Raptor Watch

Thanks for still being here!! Means a lot to me :D

Till next time xxx